dmcthunder

this is so stupid.
what drama mama plot is this supposed to be.

ohhh wells.
all the best of you with him.

take a break?
be best friends.
you seriously think that's possible?

november - breaking up.
christmas - getting back.
february 4th - breaking up.
february 5th - bmt.

that grumpy old man is quite nice to talk to actually.
was chatting with my instructor today.
hmmm.
he didn't even say anything when i accidentally scrapped the wheels against the kerb when i was making a turn.

and.
my head feels cold.
yup.
i shaved already.

and i saw syam at amk hub with his friends.

hmmm.
after that i when to ssdc to check out final theory test dates.
the lady only had two march weekday timeslots with her.
and told me to check online for later dates.

then i told her that i forgot my pin.
and would like to reset it.
i gave up trying to remember what my pin was.

yup.
and she reset my pin for me.
for free ^^

haha.

i know my company for bmt already.
and my sister wished me good luck with this notorious company.

i also wish myself good luck.

stupid clutch.

the car was stuck in the middle of the road today when i was trying to start moving at the traffic light.
i released the clutch too much.
and stalled the car.

okay.
no big deal.
start the engine lor.

THE STUPID ENGINE WOULDN'T START!!!

so there i was.
stuck in the middle of the 3 lane road trying to start the engine.

FOR 30 SECONDS!

the car behind me was very patient.
just waited there.
then followed me very slowly before overtaking me.
instead of zooming past me at the first chance.

step clutch.
step accelerator.
relase clutch to biting point.
step accelerator somemore.
release clutch.
move off.

sounds easy.
but the stupid coordination not so easy to master.

my instructor had to keep using the stick to help me release the clutch slowly to 'biting point'
or 'half clutch'

which wasn't really half clutch.
'cos the pedal could be pressed in like some 20cm.
and the so-called 'half clutch' is after you release about 5cm?
that's not half.
that's a quarter.

today my instructor already let me go up to gear 4.
and drive at the speed of 60-70km/h.

cool.
but it doesn't help.
'cos my problem still exists in the clutch thingie.

my mum told me to practise the motion when i got nothing to do.
sounds lame.
but okay.

i can go forsee myself driving fast when i get my driving license.
oh no.
haha.

not my fault.
its a sensitive accelerator.
just resting your foot on the pedal will help you speed up to 40-60km/h already.

he told me to go register for my FTT now.
'cos no point waiting till i can driving properly then register.
just wasting time.

but..
I CANNOT REMEMBER MY PIN NUMBER TO LOG IN MY ACCOUNT TO REGISTER!!

oh wells.
there's just about 999,999 different combinations right?

i think people should stop over-estimating me.

like seriously.
i don't really know why people like to give me roles and duties to do.
i prefer to keep low-profile and just do my job.
but no.
the adults and leaders have to allocate stuff for me to do.

i don't know why
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i just got promoted to an assistant catechist from a team leader.
but retained my position as a TL leader.
and i'm still in the A-team.
and i'm like a wanted man everywhere.
-.-

sec1 team: come back here!
augustine: you should lead the CA team
vincent: if kenneth is here, then i'm going to be short on my side. i want kenneth on my side!

..
if only shadow clones were real...

anyways.
the point is.
i don't see myself being fit enough and capable enough to do those stuff.
so i don't know why people keep saying that i'm damn good or really experienced etc.

like.
just think la?
augustine wanted me to be some 'camp consultant' for church camps.
'cos he says my experience will be very beneficial.

i was like thinking.
oh no. hello? i'm like 18 only? and i only have 3 years of experience in camps?
and i only started planning and getting involved in exco planning and running in confirmation camp 2008.
and he feels that i have like a wealth of experience and expertise to offer.
-.-

oh nooo.
and i see people who are more capable than me in doing this job.
especially IVY LAM!
yes.
you.

you can take my job.
because we basically do the same stuff.
but you are more systematic and organised.
i'm like.
do anything and everything that comes to my head.

oh yea.
that's why i don't take notes during meetings.
it like playing out in my mind.

i don't see how difficult it is to like stimulate a scenario in your mind..
don't know why some of my friends say its like impossible..
hmmm..

anyways..
like.
i'm too over-estimated.

just don't want to screw things up.
so when i don't screw things up.
i'll get the thumbs-up and congrats.
and praise to say how pro i am.

ahhhhhhhhh.
and people tell me not to under-estimate myself.
-.-


so...
i don't know.
i shall just do whatever i'm supposed to do.

looks like the combination of kenneth and penknives is working up again.
once in maris stella.
i also took out my fingers.

luckily this time just a small one.

i think i'll eventually end up chopping my fingers off.